Wednesday, January 31, 2007
10:01 pm
to all those who think he's dumb, i'm telling you he's not!
to all those who think he's a flirt, i'm telling you he's not anymore!
to all those who think he's not special, i'm telling you he is!
to all those who think he's not good enough, i'm telling you he is!
to all those who think we won't last, i'm telling you we will!
i love him and he loves me! we will last, we'll show everyone who doubted us!
Forever and ever till death do us part!
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8:39 pm
final product
the cake i baked in a rush for michelle
cutting the cake
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Monday, January 29, 2007
9:03 pm
to josh: you are making the same mistake i did by generalizing boys. not all boys are that childish so you are wrong.
to whoever said "go f*** your girlfriend": i didn't say that my friends did not use vulgarities but just because they use vulgarities doesn't make it right for you to use them. two wrongs don't make a right and i do not support them using such words. however, my friends did not ask ian to f*** me, my friends did not use the word against me so i do have a right to be angry that it was used in that particular instance. even your friends knew you were wrong, thats why they said, "ssshhhh" and "shut up! don't say it so loudly!" or something along those lines. how can you try to defend a statement like that? it is so obvious who is at fault here. if i am wrong, i will learn from my mistake and apologise for it so why can't you do the same? can you honestly say that it was right to say such a thing? i don't think so...
to anons: if you don't have the balls to leave your names, don't waste your time tagging. for your information, this is my blog, my diary so i have every right to state my opinion as this is MY blog. if you aren't happy with my opinion, don't read my blog! it's as simple as that! and just for the record, i did say hi to people. also, i'm not two faced, what you see is what you get. i can be extremly nice, if you are nice to me and i can be extremly mean, if you are mean to me. i respect those who respect me first and i wasn't given respect at the party. maybe all of you are very nice people deep down inside but i didn't see the nice side of you so that is my opinion of you. if you are so unhappy with it then change it instead of comment on it. actions speak louder than words.
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Sunday, January 28, 2007
1:43 pm
ian's birthday dinner was on 27th jan at garibaldi. that was way more successful! i think i spent a couple of hours getting ready...i had to do my nails, put on a facial mask, shower, do my hair and change. i wore the purple french connection spag, jeans, pretty purple heels and a black shawl plus i carried my mum's ferragamo evening bag.
my conversation with my mum:
i am playing with my earrings
mum-nice earrings, are they the ones ian bought for you?
me-uh huh
mum-how much did he spend?!
me-dunno
mum-where are you going?
me-garibaldi
mum-is ian going?
me-it's his birthday dinner!
mum-oh no! i better give him a red packet
me-er...ok
mum-he's a nice boy but just be friends ok?
i looked away
mum-you should have many boyfriends, at one point of time i had about ten.
my mother is the only mother who encourages her daughter to cheat :s but rest assured, i will NOT cheat. it's against my morals.
met xingting at kap and her parents sent us there. the jam was soooo bad! when we arrived joshua, zhen yang, cephas and ian were there so we still had to wait for sara and nicolaus. i had risotto with scallops and fois gras :) yum!! for dessert i had panna cotta but i think the best dessert there is the chocolate lava cake...its heavenly!! it was kinda quiet at the start of the dinner but towards the end it got so noisy i think everyone in the restaurant was annoyed. they went to play pool afterwards so joshua and cephas tried to teach me how to play bridge but i don't think i got it. we played 4 games of tai tee and i won all 4 games...just admit it, i'm good ;) joshua was soo mean! he didn't let me take a picture of his mickey mouse pants! we booked 2 cabs after walking around aimlessly. i sent ian home and joshua became miss ong!
in preparation for ian's birthday:
my pretty cake! which by the way was edible!!!
the cake sara bought for the pizza party
make a wish :)
cutting the cake with the back of a spoon :s
group photo at garibaldi!
tiramisu
panna cotta
chocolate lava cake
may all your wishes come true!
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
7:59 pm
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Monday, January 22, 2007
11:09 pm
[ ] Holes
[x] Lizzie McGuire Movie
[x] Cheetah Girls
[ ] Halloween Town High
[x] Cadet Kelly
total so far : 4
[x] Get a Clue
[ ] Motocrossed
[x] Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs
[x] Pocahontas
[x] Pocahontas 2
[x] Lady and the Tramp
total so far: 5
[x] Lady and the Tramp 2
[x] Cinderella
[ ] The Parent Trap (original)
[x] The Parent Trap (with Lindsay Lohan)
[x] The Little Mermaid
[x] The Little Mermaid 2
Total so far: 5
[x] Mary Poppins
[x] The Fox and the Hound
[x] Dumbo
[x] Pinocchio
[x] Bambi
total so far: 5
[x] Basil: The Great Mouse Detective
[x] The Rescuers Down Under
[x] Toy Story
[x] Toy Story 2
[x] Lion King
[x] Lion King 2
total so far: 6
[x] Peter Pan
[x] Peter Pan 2
[x] Fantasia
[ ] The Three Caballeros
[x] Alice in Wonderland
[x] Sleeping Beauty
total so far: 5
[x] 101 Dalmatians
[x] 102 Dalmatians
[x] The Sword in the Stone
[x] The Jungle Book
[x] The Aristocats
total so far: 5
[x] Robin Hood
[ ] Oliver and Company
[x] Beauty and the Beast
[x] Beauty and the Beast 2
[x] Aladdin
[x] Aladdin: Return of Jafar
[x] Aladdin: The King of Thieves
total so far: 6
[x] Finding Nemo.
[x] Monsters, Inc.
[x] Hercules
[x] Mulan
[x] Mulan 2
[x] Tarzan
total so far: 6
[x] Lilo & Stitch
[x] The Hunchback of Notre Dame
[x] The Emperor's New Groove
[ ] The Nightmare Before Christmas
[x] Bed Knobs and Broomsticks
[ ] Pete's Dragon
total so far: 4
[ ] Remember the Titans
[ ] Who Framed Roger Rabbit
[x] James and the Giant Peach
[x] Mighty Ducks
[x] A Bug's Life
[x] The Incredibles
total so far: 4
[x] A Goofy Movie
[x] An Extremely Goofy Movie
[x] Atlantis
[x] The Chronicles of Narnia
[ ] Around the World in 80 Days
[x] Confessions of a Teenage Drama
Queen
total so far: 5
[x] A Cinderella Story
[x] Pirates of the Carribean
[x] Pirates of the Caribean: Dead
Man's Chest
[x] National Treasure
[x] Princess Diaries
[x] Princess Diaries 2
total so far: 6
[x] Freaky Friday
[x] Honey I Shrunk the Kids
[ ] A Muppet Christmas Carol
[x] Ice Princess
total: 3
i have watched 69 disney movies! golly gosh! i am a big disney fan!
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Friday, January 19, 2007
12:13 am
thanks sooo much joshua and bryan! poor people had to stay up uber late to listen to me complain, i really appreciate it :) i think joshua only got to sleep at 6am+ cos of ian and i. very sorry abt that! although, i don't think either of them read my blog so this is kinda pointless.
ian, i don't know why you thought there was another guy but believe me, there never will be another guy! i see you almost everyday and if i'm not with you, chances are i'm on the phone with you. i'm soo sorry! i know i get pissed at minor things and its usually nothing. i know i over react and i have a very very bad temper. i also know that i can be very unreasonable but i am trying to change, its just very hard.
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Thursday, January 18, 2007
1:50 am
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12:05 am
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007
6:13 pm
my mood: pissed!
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Monday, January 15, 2007
7:34 pm
22-33 = average
34-45 = spoiled
45+ = way upperclass
Check each that applys...
Do u have:
[x] Mother
[x] Father
[x] Sister
[ ] Brother
[ ] Nephew
[ ] Niece
[x] Cell phone
[ ] Own bathroom
[x] Own room
[ ] Swimming pool
[ ] Hot tub
[ ] Guest room
[x] Computer, Laptop or Desktop
[x] TV in room
TOTAL: 7
[x] Fullsize or bigger bed
[x] More then 8 pairs of shoes
[x] Sunglasses
[x] Watch
[x] MP3 Player/iPod
[ ] PS2
[ ] PS3
[x] Xbox
[x] Nitendo DS or PSP
[x] Gameboy/ Advance
[ ] Gamecube
[ ] Wii
TOTAL: 8
[ ] Basketball hoop
[ ] Air hockey table
[ ] Pool table
[ ] Ping pong table
[ ] Fooseball table
[ ] Trampoline
TOTAL: 0
[ ] Nightstand
[ ] Stereo/radio in bedroom
[x] DVD player
[x] Have something from abercrombie
and fitch or hollister
[ ] Shopped at AE
[ ] Shopped at AERO
[ ] shopped at hollister/Abercrombie &
Fitch
[ ] owns a Gucci, Dooney & Bourke, LV,
Coach etc.
[ ] Wears Lacoste
[x] Parents give you their credit card
TOTAL: 3
[ ] Job
[x]Goes shopping at least once a week.
[x]Expensive cologne/perfume
[ ] AIM/IM
[x] Camera
TOTAL: 3
[x] Electric or gas
scooter/motorcyle/car
[ ] Guitar/Drums/Bass guitar/ukulele
[x]Piano/Keyboard
[ ] Any other instrument
[ ] Hammock
[x] Been on a cruise
[x] Traveled out of the state
[x]Had a personal trainer
[x] expensive jewelry
[x] Met a celebrity/famous person
TOTAL: 7
[x] Straightener/curling iron
[ ]Have been to a batting cage
[ ] Have $100 on you right now
[x] Credit card or atm card/debit
card/gift card
[x] Been to Europe
[ ] Been to Hawaii
[ ]Been To NYC
[ ] Been to LA
[ ] Been to Florida
[ ]Been to Las Vegas
[ ] Been to the Bahamas
[ ] Been to South America
[ ] Been to the Caribean
[ ] Been to Michigan
[ ] Been to DC
TOTAL: 3
[x] Parents have a car
[ ] Jet Ski
[x] Camper/tent
[ ] Been to 5+states in the US
[x] 100+ buddies on friendster/myspace
[ ]More than one house
TOTAL: 3
[x] Home cooked meal almost every day
[x]Been in a limo
[ ]Been in a helicopter
[x] Own a camcorder
[x] Own a laptop
TOTAL: 4
TOTAL: 38 (spoiled) gee, tell me something i don't know.
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Sunday, January 14, 2007
11:25 pm
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Saturday, January 13, 2007
7:23 pm
woke up, got ready then took a bus to town. met laiyee, mel, suyee, shiyou and michelle at heeren. sorry i was late! had to drop angelica off at the hospital first. shiyou gave me my belated birthday present and i gave all of them their belated christmas presents. thanks for the present! i really loved it! we ate at nydc and it was really nice catching up with all of them! i had the three amigos pasta and michelle and i shared a mango mousse cake and boo boo. they told me all their stories about jc and i just listened. su and shiyou tried convincing me to go to ac and i have decided that i will go if michelle goes and if i can get in. they were really encouraging and all. after lunch, i took the bus to gleneagles to see my mum. i was bored to death in the hospital so angelica and i took photos which are too stupid to be posted on my blog! we cabbed home at abt 5pm then i cooked dinner :)
6 of us
mango mousse cake and boo boo. yum!
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5:28 pm
woke up and was really moody. i think my pms happens during my period instead of before. had leftover pasta for lunch then bummed around till 4pm. i then decided to take a bus to see icks cos he wasn't listening to me on the phone. its like he was physically present but his mind was somewhere else. arrived at his place at 5pm and we walked around till we found somewhere to sit. we talked and talked but i have no idea what conclusion we came to. you never told me that you won't be allowed out on weekdays, you will be busy with training and tuition on weekends and you can't use the com on weekdays. gosh! i will miss you uber much!!! the thought of that makes me wanna cry. thing is, even if i see you everyday in school, i won't be spending quality time with you so there is no point. after our talk, i walked to the mrt but i got lost. eventually i found it and i took the train to orchard then i walked all the way to st martin's drive even though i had no idea where it was. met carrot and the things at the entrance then mandy and squishy came down to get us. it was good fun with 0506! carrot baked a really yummy cake! we ate, took photos and kerry and i tried to do a stupid dance but i'm not sure what we ended up doing!
cheerleaders eat a LOT!!!
THINGS!!!
carrot's yummy cake!
happy birthday mandy and nat!
joanna is very very sick!!
group photo!!
witty t-shirts!
tanning in the dark
guess why i couldn't go in??
nice toe touch chins!
nat and bev
double hitch
carrot's heel stretch!
going up!
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Friday, January 12, 2007
2:31 pm
reasons for going to ac:
-i've always wanted to go there
-i will be in the same Christian environment
-i have friends there
reasons for not going to ac:
-i don't even think i can get in (sara, you know that there is a great possibility of that happening so don't tell me that its bullshit)
-icks will ignore me (you weren't there, you didn't see it, i know its hard to believe but its true)
-i will become all paranoid when i see icks with girls
-i thought badminton was bad but oh my! swimming is even worse!
-people hate me there
-frog is there and so is THAT girl!
-i will be very distracted
-i don't have a cca to join!
i am just as confused as you are! maybe i like the idea of the perfect jc life you described in ac but the reality is, the world is not so kind. its really easy to say all of that will happen by just going to ac but it won't. i want that perfect jc life just as much as you do but i am not going to get my hopes up too high because i will be crushed when reality hits me and i find out that it will never happen.
i know its hard to believe that he ignores me cos we are soo close when we are together but when his friends are there, its like i don't even know him. his friends will be there everyday in jc and being ignored is not something i can get used to. you say you won't ignore me but i find it very hard to believe.
picnic: you ignored me before joanna arrived so don't tell me you thought i was busy talking to joanna
beta's party: you ignored me the moment we stepped into the room even though you promised not to leave me. don't tell me you thought i was busy talking to the 3 girls cos i was left alone before i even met them.
airport: i was not busy talking on the phone. you left me alone therefore i decided to call sara because i felt so alone! you didn't look at me once! it took you half an hour to realise that i was gone! i was standing alone outside starbucks like some idiot while you were inside talking to everyone!
i do NOT expect you to talk to me all the time but i would acknowledge a stranger more than you acknowledge me when your friends are around! you promised to not leave me alone numerous times but you always broke that promise! why should i believe that your promise means something this time?! when i go to jc and find out that you've broken your promise, there is no way out!
things were so much simpler before the opposite sex entered my life. before frogy and during frogy, it was ac all the way but now, the thought of being in the same school as him and her makes me sick! then you came along and the whole jc thing got more complicated. don't get me wrong, i definitely do not regret meeting you. i think it was the best thing that happened to me this year and i do love you but things are just complicated.
you have no idea how scared i am! deep down, i know i can't get in. i am sick of people telling me how smart i am because I AM NOT SMART!!! so stop telling me that i am just because i've always been able to get by without studying. i actually think it makes me quite dumb! the whole world is telling me how much potential i have yet i can't be bothered to do anything about it. it seems rather daft to me. anyway, the thought of not being able to make it to jc scares me shitless. i think about it every single night before i go to bed and i toss and turn in bed for hours because i am too worried. i keep getting all sorts of dreams about me doing badly and i wake up sweating and panting. its hard to believe that i actually care about my results because its something i try my best to hide. nobody will see how ashamed and disappointed i am if i act like i don't care. well, the truth is, i do care and its driving me insane.
bottom line: i want to go to ac, i've always wanted to go to ac. its just that now, i've got other things to consider before i make my decision. one wrong choice and i could screw up my entire life!
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2:29 pm
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Wednesday, January 10, 2007
11:03 pm
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7:54 pm
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Thursday, January 04, 2007
10:51 pm
woke up, had lunch then went out to meet icks so we could look for jobs. my wallet is very very sad right now cos i spent a whole lot of $$ today but i can't say why. oh well, it made me feel happy! although, it was quite embarrassing cos i had to go to toys r us, buy a lollipop and ask for the biggest bag they have so i could hide what i bought. icks and i walked around a lot of places aimlessly but obviously, we didn't find a job. we walked to newton and it started to rain then we cabbed to the park. what we did in the park is for me to know and you to find out ;) yup then dinner at home. my mum was sooo suspicious!!! it was scary!!
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12:31 am
woke up, cooked pasta for lunch then went to the gym. dad was sick so we didn't last very long at the gym. had dinner then watched two dvds. talked to icks after that and it was a rather emotional conversation.
thursday:
woke up at 12.30pm but didn't get outta bed till 2pm. talked to icks for a while. sorry i made you worry! had lunch at 2.30pm then met icks at raffles city at 3.45pm. we sat at starbucks for a while but we were pretty quiet. icks wanted to go some place quieter so i suggested the esplanade. i prefer the esplanade to the bridge at clarke quay. we finally found a spot to sit and we talked for quite a long time. then we cabbed to the airport to send bryan off. i felt soo extra and ignored so i walked off to talk on the phone. after he left, icks and i went to fish & co. his friends were there too. gee, they talk a lot!! we took the train to expo and walked around outside. i like standing there with you in the rain. it feels soo right and special :) i'm too lazy to update properly right now.
remember, FYI TIPY
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Monday, January 01, 2007
7:33 pm
i woke up at like 7.30am for church and i passed carrot the sizzlers christmas presents at church. thingOne was there too! was supposed to help debbie throw water on a guy but i missed! took a bus home after church and got ready for lunch. went to lei garden for lunch with my suitcase but i left my dress at home! i started freaking out but icks was soo nice! he cabbed to my hse to pick it up for me. thanks sooo much! i was supposed to take a nap cos i was dead tired but instead, i ended up going swimming. the pool was freezing!! icks wanted to know if it really was a mineral water pool so he drank the water (eewww!) and concluded that it really was mineral water. bathing with a bikini on is very very tough! we were in a rush so i took the shower and he took the bathtub. met rara then went to jasons. rara and icks both had dumb blonde moments in the supermarket and i am proud to say that i didn't! even the lady at the ham counter was laughing at them! i wanted to buy meatloaf and sara said,"how are we gonna cook the meatloaf?", my answer "meatloaf is already cooked! its supposed to be eaten cold!". icks said something really stupid too but i can't remember what it was. we bought yoghurt, ruffles, swiss miss, milk, ice, water, kickapoo, chocolate and cards. nicolaus arrived at 8.30pm but we were too hungry to wait for him so we ate first. icks cooked two types of pasta and rara cooked chicken drumsticks. nicolaus bought hyatt tiramisu! his friend arrived at 9pm+ and ian's friend arrived at 10pm+. i played tai tee with ian and rara. i won all three games. i played tai tee with ian, rara, daniel and i won 1 out of 2 games. nicolaus trying to play tai tee is very funny! him trying to fix a tv is even funnier!
they kept calling the operater like non-stop. once to bring up 5 extra towels, 2nd time to bring up 3 extra pillows, 3rd time to bring up 5 extra towels cos no one brought up extra towels the first time, 4th time to bring up a bottle opener for the bacardis, 5th time to fix the tv, 6th time to fix the tv again, 7th time to bring up a bottle opener for the champagne (which didn't need a bottle opener) and they even wanted to call for extra blankets! we are paying for the room but that doesn't mean you can make people rush around for you. they are not your servants and its quite sad that they have to work on new year's eve. you don't haffta make things harder for them just because we are fortunate enough to enjoy ourselves on new year's eve. oh and we shouldn't mess up the room cos we are paying people to clean it up for us. if cleaners get paid $6 an hour and they take 15minutes to clean our room then they are paid $1.50 to clean our room. we should make their job as easy as possible especially since they are working on new year's day.
the poor man couldn't fix the tv after running up and down twice so he brought up a working tv for us to use. we switched on the tv 5minutes before the count down and icks popped the champagne 10seconds too early. icks, rara, nicolaus, daniel, joel and i put our hands on the knife and cut the cake together. i went outside the room to look for the tv man so we could give him some tiramisu and icks followed me then something happened. i figured that if it really is gonna last forever then the something will eventually happen so i might as well make it happen at a perfect time such as new year's day. we did find the tv man in the end and we gave him a slice of tiramisu. after the count down, we cabbed to purvis street. i was stuck in a cab with the two biggest bullshitters and oh my! it was sooo funny!! nicolaus likes to say f*** a lot! we ended up walking to the pool place cos we went to the wrong pool place. met his friends landis and jermin at tcc and we sat down for a drink. they talked and they talked and they talked non-stop! and as usual, my stomach hurt from laughing. we walked back to the pool place and rara and i watched them play like ten games of pool! i thought they were gonna play like two games!!! i was bored to death and my stomach was painful! rara and i are very very hopeless at playing pool!! at 5am, they finally decided to stop and it took us half an hour to find a cab so we got back to the hotel at 5.45am!! after showering, i tried to sleep but someone was snoring soo loudly!! i don't know what time i eventually fell asleep but i woke up at 10am and went back to sleep till 10.30am then went back to sleep till 12pm. icks and i tried freaking sara out by pretending to make out under the blanket, it was sooo funny!! rara left and we lay in bed till 1.59pm then we scrambled to pack everthing. we checked out then i cabbed home and fell asleep.
i love you icks!! very very much! i guess i kinda realised it when i was sitting on the sofa and you were sitting on the floor in front of me. you looked at me and said something and in my mind i was thinking "gee, i am sooo lucky to have him". i really can imagine us doing grocery shopping together at 30 but i just don't want to get my hopes up too high. i don't want to be hurt again.
my reflection on 2006:
2006 was probably the worst year of my life. i have never ever felt so much pain before. i was miserable on new year's day 2006 and the misery continued till i met icks. i trusted you. you said that you would always love me and you would never leave me and i believed you but in one day, everything changed. you just "didn't love me anymore". you have no idea how much i suffered because of you! i knew everything abt my best friend for 3 years and in less than a month, i didn't know a single thing abt you. you changed soo much! and i personally think that you changed for the worse. well at least that phase of my life is over! icks, you are sooo special! meeting you was the best thing that happened to me this year. you brought me through Os and you really mean sooo much to me!
So come as you are
You've got nothing to prove
You won me with all that you do
You don't know how you've touched my life
Oh there's so many ways, I just can't describe
You taught me what love is supposed to be
It's all the little things that made you beautiful to me
Everything in you is beautiful
Love you give shines right through me
Everything in you is beautiful
Beautiful to me
my new year's resolutions:
-make my life more Christ centred
-control my temper
-stop being soo lazy
ok so the 2nd one is a bit hard and the 3rd one is almost impossible. i know new year's resolutions are hardly ever kept but i really do intend on keeping the 1st one.
photos from new year's eve and new year's day! rara has more and she also has the funniest video ever!!!
champagne!
rara and me!
XXXXXXXXX!
i <3 icks!
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