Wednesday, October 18, 2006
9:13 pm
i feel like eating everything in the hse! maybe its just one of my moods...either i am really sad or really bored. sara and i had a really interesting conversation just now. we came to the conclusion that love never dies, its just that ppl change. i've never really thought abt it before...like i always believed that if it wasn't forever then it wasn't love but i realise that it could be. i really do believe in fate and soul mates...like the one perfect person God has chosen for me. i believe that God has a plan for me and everything will go according to his plan. God works in mysterious ways so from what i've heard, the person will be the one i least expect it to be. i know love isn't perfect and marriage isn't happily ever after. i'm not dumb you know. love is tough and painful but true love is stronger than all the pain. i know what it feels like and even though i was such a mess and in soo much pain, i still want love. what is it exactly? i have no idea. why does everyone desire it? not a clue. is it worth it? definately. i guess i'm just incomplete without it but how am i supposed to find love when i can't seem to move on from my past? my past still haunts me and its unfair to lots of ppl. i need to work on building my future instead of dwelling on my past.
+ AMEN