Wednesday, September 27, 2006
8:44 pm
I STUDIED TODAY! YAY MEE!!! ok so i did more talking than studying but at least its a start! the look you gave me when you said "please study" made me think why on earth do you care sooo much? well congrats! you have actually managed to motivate me to study for now anyway...
my message to
1: you are just plain weird and you freak me out! you can't like a person after speaking to them once!! other ppl may think you are okay but i most certainly don't!
2: you are my friend and i don't know what happened...i am not angry cos you think he is nice. i am angry cos you spoke to him abt me behind my back, lied abt it and accused me of being pissed cos you like him! you know how i feel abt all these things and you just had to talk to the one guy who freaks me out...i feel betrayed and yr timing couldn't have been worse...anyway good luck for yr results...there is sooo much stuff i wish i could say to you but i just can't after all this...
3: i honestly have no idea what is going through yr mind. you confuse me...eg. yr blog says that you had an amazing day yet everything you said abt the day was bad...you say you like me but you want me to kiss beta and you just love insulting me. if it is true then i think it is just a phase and it will go away soon. also, i'm not really sure who you are...i'm not sure which msges yr friends told you to write and which ones you wrote yrself...i do over analyze messages but i don't expect mesages to be perfect cos usually when they are perfect, they aren't real. i wanna get to know the real you...
i am falling sooo quickly i don't know if i can pick myself up again...i don't know what to do. i am sooo confused! you make me feel special and i like the way i feel when i'm with you but my guess is that its just a phase. it always is...
+ AMEN